solitude is bliss, dun you think? Just when you think everything falls into place, the world crumbles apart. Strange the way the heavens like to make fun of us, or at least, me.
innocence is pure. innocence is good. innocence is almost never. innocence is all i need. friendships are fragile. dun trust anyone. DUN TRUST ANYONE.
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i feel questions that i need to know
how you could ever hurt me so
i need to know
what i've done wrong
and how long it's been going on
did i not pay enough attention?
or did i not give enough affection?
not only will your answers keep me safe
but i know never to make the same mistake again
you can tell it to my face
or even on the phone
you can write it in a letter
either way i have to know
did i ever treat you right?
did i always start the fight?
either way, i'm going out of my mind
all the answers to my questions i have to find
*
i can't believe it. pure memory. dun you think the human mind is brilliant?
the setting is perfect, the thunders bellowing outside, the musty room homey, the music nostalgic. the irony of the song:
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run to me
whenever you're lonely
run to me
if you need a shoulder
now and then you need someone older
so darling
you run to me
am i unwise?
to open your eyes to love me?
*
i hear myself humming. i feel myself drowning. i see myself crying.
another song-
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Everythings so blurry
And everyones so fake
And everybodys so empty
And everything is so messed up
Pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
.
.
.
.
.
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When ya shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
*
no my whole world doesn't surround you. you're a thorn in my flesh and the sand in my eye. the bullet in my head. the SHIT in my life.
have you hated anyone so much before? is it possible to hate anyone so much? i was never like i am today.
*
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just dont belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you dont know what its like
When nothing feels alright
You dont know what its like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When youre down
To feel like youve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no ones there to save you
No you dont know what its like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
But deep inside youre bleeding
No you dont know what its like
When nothing feels alright
You dont know what its like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When youre down
To feel like youve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no ones there to save you
No you dont know what its like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lies straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think Im happy
But Im not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You dont know what its like
What its like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When youre down
To feel like youve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no ones there to save you
No you dont know what its like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When youre down
To feel like youve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no ones there to save you
No you dont know what its like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
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welcome to my life. i love this song. it's beautiful, dun you think? i hope i dun sound suicidal. i just hate life. that's all.
