ha i cant believe i was so impulsive as to leave home at 10.30pm just to pub at wala wala. so much for my yoga class n family bbq, bcos of them i pretty much decided to skip the king edward hall play - which btw, i heard was very nice to watch so cheers to thomas n eunice - but thanks to my dad n mum for allowing me.
it was pretty much impulsive n impromptu (which i likkkkkkeeeeeeee). the med pple who went for the play decided to go wala wala to pub n the interesting thing was that it was not only john n shawn's anat group, it was so mixed. it had aladdin pple, aka keefe's grp i think. that's y when i reached there i was pretty surprised, though i must admit i did go all the way down for a certain reason. haha. anws, i cant really rmb the total count but it was considerable, about 15+?
what really was to a certain extent, surprising to me, was the game we all played. it was basically like each 1 of us makes a statement, n everyone has to respond to it with a "GREEN" or "RED", which is agreeing with or disagreeing respectively. the questions were really horny n some of them touched certain questions that were controversial. For example, one of them commented I like someone in medicine, n almost everyone said green, apart from me n another gal. ok, u know, im still actually considering whether i told the truth but the 1st answer that shoots to ur head shld be the right answer. this was esp surprising for me cos there are so few newly formed couples in medicine, so i was close to the conclusion that med pple dun really like each other, or everyone is just hanging on to previous jc relationships. but apparently, med pple like med pple but no couples are forming, so my new conclusion is everyone is just waiting for the right person n keeping their options open. (contrary to vjc behaviour :)
im not a lesbian. but certain gals r attractive, n i dun mean girlie gals, i mean gals who resemble boys. so i conclude i am not intrinsicly gay, but i do believe that gals give gals in a relationship what some guys cant seem to give. haha, so let me emphasise im not gay (this is impt bcos i think i answered one of the questions with certain prerequisites in mind).
another thing i always wondered about was what is the definition for liking someone? then john sorta told me his def was that you constantly think of the person, unintentionally (fair enough) n you think about what the person might be doing constantly. with this statement, it struck me then that i have never truely liked someone then, i just liked the idea of the person being with me. ha ha, it suddenly made a difference to me. bcos i nv thought about what that person might be doing, i just thought about what it would be like if i was with that person. does that make a lot of difference? i just realised this n i realised how selfish i am. ha. must be inn's influence.
anws, on with the story. n so the questions went on, some of the questions were really interesting n the answers were even more interesting, esp for the pple in med u know, n the other pple in med u dunno but recognise by face. (yan yi is attached???!! n i didnt know. i feel so out of the loop. sigh) some of the questions included: i have never two-timed someone, i have liked multiple pple at one time/i am currently liking multiple pple at one time, i have liked/currently like someone who is already in a relationship (note: this like developed after the person got attached), i would not like to get into a relationship with someone intellectually lower than me (esp for the gals), i would not get attached to a guy shorter than me/gal taller than me, i would not get attached to a guy younger than me/gal older than me, etc, amongst other entertaining questions like: i like to sing in the shower, i would not mind taking part in kinky sex (handcuffs etc note this is only when we are ready to do it, n for all of us unanimously, it is only after marriage), i love to watch cooking shows (haha), i have never clubbed or drank b4. n many many more. interesting huh.
course there was the brief momentary idiocy of some of us dancing in the cold room cos the music there was nice, n there was no nearby club we could settle for, hence the dancing in a strangely inappropriate place. it was freaking freezing cold, but eventually my whole body went numb. it was so fun n i realise i miss clubbing but that isn't really an option now.
after the entire escapade, i was tempted into going weiting's hall to just hang out n have fun. the irony (if you can call it irony) was that i didn't personally know weiting but i knew everyone else who went to her hall, ie kalpana, belle, shawn n john. btw, she stays in kent ridge so i decided to pay qian qi/mal/perlynn a visit. but the latter 2 were snoozing so i just dropped by qian qi's place, man does she really know how to point out something "offensive" for an good old friend she has not met for a long time.anws, she refused to show me her face, apparently she said she looked horrible n refused to show it to me. gals....... haha.
so we returned to weiting's floor n played citadel, which to be honest, aint a hot option of a game at 4am in the morning. nobody was able to think straight n it was a lOOOOng game. haha it was more fun to play twister after that. i need more yoga practice, which brings to mind yoga. haha ill talk about tt later. kalpana has a super good balance, amazing that gal. she managed to kick shawn out of the mat. haha. it was really really fun. then after we just hung out in her room n chat about stuff (note that by this time, john n shawn were so knocked out i dun think they caught anything that we said during that time, thank goodness for that. haha.) so it was just the gals left who were talking. which if u ask me, was somewhat strange bcos i felt intrusive. in the sense that i didnt belong in their anat grp so of course i dun expect them to reveal anything but i WAS being insensitive simply by my presence. bcos i was depriving the other 3 gals of a chance to be actually truthful to each other. so i felt kinda bad, n i know it's really not good for them to expand their truth pool of pple, esp to someone like me, whom they most likely would have little contact with after this incident, bcos i was neither in their anat grp nor their og.
but it turned out pretty ok n we sorta spoke in riddles i guess, we said or revealed stuff without pointing out who the actual individual involved was, bcos it involved med pple. n i got some really good advice n heard really interesting varying points of view, in relation to the opposite gender. i was by far pushing the limit of what time i was going home because by that time it was already 7am. my phone was almost out of bat, my bro was asking me whether i was crazy, my mum was lamenting how she had to stay up for me (then i told her that my maid would be awake to open the door). but i guess i really did push the limit, i reached home at 8. i know i pushed it but i did it bcos i dun have many opportunities like this during the school term. n i dun mix with pple who r as forthcoming as john/shawn's anat grp. they are really the 1st group of pple who i have come across that are so honest about relationships, since secondary school. so u can basically infer that my jc life pretty much sucked. with that in mind, i wanted to stay as long as i thought i could. then i thought about how i was intruding into their anat grp's privacy (which i was, if u think about it) so i didnt join them for macdonald's breakfast after that. that, in addition to the reason, that i felt i should really go home already.
so that was basically my friday night to saturday morning. really interesting n uncommon to experience if u ask me. i had fun, n it made me think about a lot of issues after in a completely different light, bcos u do take into account what other pple have advised. it was just a blast. med pple r really cool.
oh, which reminds me of how different anat grps actually relate to each other differently, bcos my anat grp is so different from them. i dun mean in a bad way, i just mean in a different way. though, to be honest, sometimes i wish we were more honest or forthcoming about our individual lives. shrugs, different pple r different i guess. i cant expect more than what they are. which also bring to mind how im so not in the loop nowadays, or maybe i was never in the loop to begin with. im always the last to learn about things, even though i do learn about it eventually, it's like only when everyone else knows already then i know. its ok, i just need readjustment bcos im used to being like the 1st or the 1st few in the loop when things happened in the past. shrugs.
so how did my yoga class go? it was actually painful n relaxing. my muscles were aching in the same position n i was trembling so badly for certain positions, like the "banana" position. man, is my body whacked up. then it was relaxing bcos the instructor played really soothing music to let us relax at the end of the lesson. it was pretty much like sam's "direct hypnosis sun setting example" where someone in the cd keep asking us to visualise a green emerald purifying our body. that was the most slack part of the lesson. haha
ok this is a pretty long entry, a lot more thoughts ran through my mind than this. like what i said, gals think too much, but it's something i cant help, i guess. (sometimes i wish my thoughts are simpler :)
med pple shld do more of these things more often. but i guess it's not like we really have that option nowadays.
