as i sit amidst soft comfy happy cushions, i ponder upon my regrets for the past few weeks, and soon, it expanded to the regrets of the past few years. it has considerably accumulated over the years, and it just requires a soft blow to oneself to start resurfacing old nightmares and fears. having turned off the completely ironic melodies of the hip-hop (almost clubbing-like) song "low", i just concentrated on what i haven't thought about for weeks since the commencement of the doomed CAs, with occasionally pleasant jibs from the msn window.
it's quite peaceful now, no annoying ramblings of a fellow being in my room. with that said, i had no idea my sis had the intention of staying out tonight. that aside, i contemplated the outcome of my eyebags tomorrow as i glanced upon the 1:52 AM in the corner of my screen. trying rather desperately to ignore the fatigue that is slowly creeping over me, i briefly but surely immensed myself in the rare calmness of my room, the cosy buzzing of the air-con, the somewhat creepy big pooh bear staring back at me, the rumbling of my laptop on my bed. kudos to my maid for clearing the mess of notes i had sprawled all over the floor, which simultaneously brings to mind, where did she pack it too? oh well, there's the problem for another day.
most unfortunately, nature beckons and my lids cannot sustain much longer. so my rambling shall continue after the days' (or even perhaps week's) events overtake me. for now, i need my beauty sleep (no kidding, i look hideous without my lights out, or rather, more hideous than usual).
