i just had this mental realisation that i am an individual that would avoid problems at all cost, right up to the point where they blow up in my face. that is probably why i never confront relationships (all kinds, at that) and how that always ends me up in shit. haha. this is bad.... bad, in fact, it just dawned on me that i always hide behind smses. haha, oh well, that's what girl friends are for right? to get you out of shit sometimes. :) and i have to admit that im one of those who always choose to treat certain unpleasantness in life as if they never happened, so far it has worked out all right, i think. but frankly the only reason i do this is i really dunno how to handle things when they go out of hand. hmmm..... someone should teach me. :(

oh man i should stop rambling, im so not gonna finish studying on time. kill me. kill me.